I'm booooored in a small city! Boooored! I can't wait to go to Montreal! I miss Montreal and Ania and all the weird shit I could pull at 3 AM. Yeah. Only three more days and I fly outta here back to the Eastern stomping grounds. And this time, I will check out all the museums and stuff.

Yeah, I'm sort of in a better mood. I've got a purpose and the like and it went as I expected when it finally came, so yeah...

Three or so more days and then I'm off to Montreal.

I don't know what else to say. The feelings are kinda warm and simmering again...Huh.

I saw this sticky note that was in Spanish yesterday and it said "How easily does everything turn to shit, no?"

That's pretty much how this week is going. Oddly enough, I'm just sardonically watching it go by. I can always get myself into random situations that make anything seem amusing. But emotionally, yeah, I did have my emo bit. But for the most part, it's like fuck it. Roll with it.

Which is how I ended up partying with some random people at a random bar. I swear I don't know how I end up doing things like this. Oh and I have four more piercings. Brings the total to ten. Heh.

Gonna be in Montreal soon. Can't wait. It seems that Montreal and a few days in LA were the best part of my vacation.

Next year, Europe for sure.

Aaargh! I wrote up this entire thing on what I have been doing in LA and the computer ate it! Blaaargh! We shall try again. So the saga of the bags (which all came down to miscommunication on everyone's part) has been resolved, but now I gotta figure out how to cram stuff here and there for the next leg of the trip.

Anime Expo was something totally unexpected, I swear to God. I was amazed at the sheer amount of people and cosplayers and merch and things to do and whatnot. I really enjoyed it and it could be another outing in the future and whatnot. Or Comic con. Seriously gotta think about that one.

LA is LA, pretty much. Some parts that I recall from the last visit were the same, so it's all more or less good, I suppose.

I'm staying with my friend PR and it's kind of nice to have a day were there's some breathing room. We were up talking and sharing music last night and it was just awesome! I love doing things like that with friends! Fun times!

Today is mostly errand running around Hollywood, believe it or not. I've got a map and change and the metro is there to take me places and the like, so it's all good l just hope that the weather isn't going to be OMG stifling when I get out. When we went to the Rose Gardens the day before, it was pretty evident how hot things were due to the scorched earth look most of the flowers had. Eeek.

Aaand I have gotten in touch with Mair and we can hopefully meet up tonight and catch up on old times and whatnot. God I love catching up with friends! Especially ones that I wasn't sure I would ever see again. Funny how life does those kinds of things.

Yeah...gotta get going now...noon approaches and all that.

Yeah...gonna run now.

I mean that I'm updating my thing on LA. JL left today and I managed to get a hold of Kotori Okasaan, which I honestly didn't think was going to happen again, but hell, I guess life is always throwing you curve balls when it comes to things like this. When people connect, I guess there is a way to get together and meet them again if you want it bad enough, I suppose.

I also am getting in touch with another friend from LJ *crosses fingers* before I take off back to Canada. Heh.

I'm sort of tired and wired, but we've been talking so much about stuff happening for the past five years and whatnot. It's interesting because of the changes in perspective and how we both have changed in our lives. It's pretty cool.

Oh, got my luggage back and I have tags fixed up with my new address just in case the same effin' thing happens again. Yeah...

So I will write detailed reports later on. I don't want to be a dick and take up all the time at the comp, like some starving dude or something...plus I think that I am not making much sense when it comes to writing stuff here.

So this is it for now. I will prepare the report later.

So I'm updating this from the hotel lobby. I didn't bring the laptop cause I was thinking of replacing it. It looks like I'm going to be replacing a lot of things cause an incompetent Air Canada handler gave me the wrong information, which led to my bag being missing despite it being four days. I've been calling non-stop and I was now told that it's due to the holiday that it's that slow.

I've also been told that I have to make a claim, so I'm filling out the paperwork and I am giving them a two day lee-way. After this trip, I'm never flying Air Canada again. Not impressed with the delays that they have had this entire fucken weekend.

The convention has been really good. Today was the last day and I have to say that I did shop a lot. I bought a ton of shit there, but I also had to dip into my spending money due to not having clothes, courtesy of Air Canada. So now I'm walking around in a Tardis Express T-Shirt and some other stuff from Macy's. Yeah. I'm not thrilled about that at all.

I'm kinda stoked to be here, since I met a lot of cool people and took a lot of cool pics and got books and stuff that I know I wouldn't see in Canada, but the fucken thing with my bag has made my stomach problems worse also.

So I'm debating flying out earlier than planned because I'm just fucken upset and pissed off and there is shit I gotta do...I gotta contact my friend,but yeah...I dunno.

Anyways, that's the bitching and moaning for now. I've learned to not deal with Air Canada again and next time, I will make sure insurance is included.

Crap. Stomach's upset now. Blah.

That`s about it, really. I got my passport today and it's so freaking shiy and new that it blows my mind. The picture isn't bad, but I never realized that I look THAT freakin' sirius before without my glasses and all that. I finally got my hair to do the flippy emo thing today, which pleased me quite a bit, since it looked liked it was supposed to.

Ok. I didn`'t update last night cause I got home at like midnight and stuff. I went out with AK, whom I met in the Scheff and we drove around shooting the shit and we went to the biodome and looked at Lemurs (I like to move it, move it) roaming in the wild. I also got a couple of vids of an otter and a beaver swimming and being fucken cute and all that.

We ate at this pretty cool Portugese place that serves this amazing chicken and chips platter while we watched the Spanish community go crazy and rub it in that Spain walloped Germany...which was also the reason why my father was trying to call me. Heh.

I'm very pleased to say that I haven't even blown as much money as I was worried of blowing and I only have like tomorrow and some of Wednesday left to deal with.

I got together with MR today and we walked around, talked a lot, ate at a really cool place and went to see 'WALL-E' which is a film that despite being marketed as a kiddie flick, is quite deep. Now I am just printing out my tickets and slowly making my way to the hostel and more than likely, crashing. I woke up early today, so even though it will be sticky, I strongly suspect I will sleep well.

Time on the library station seems to be running out, so I will make this short.

Ende

Hey! So yeah, third day and I'm pleased to say I haven't spent myself into the ground. I'm really happy that I'm totally keeping track, so that's pretty good.

I went to see "Wanted" and it was pretty cheesy, but entertaining. I have to admit I expected somethng to happen between the leads, but overall, it's a movie that teenage boys are going to enjoy because of the cool fx and violence. Not bad for a summer popcorn flick, to tell the truth.

I got in about nine after having a less than adequate pho bowl and I ended up chatting with a couple of the guys here. We all went out, played pool and hung out until like 4 am. I jut woke up at like oneish. The heat and the morning after feeling got me good. It's been really humid here lately and the heat feels utterly oppressive. It's not that bad right now cause of the rain and the wind blowing through the city, but still.

I got the name on my plane tickets changed and I gotta go to a cyber cafe and get them printed out. Passport pick-up is on Monday and I must admit I'm kinda killing time here. I wrote some poems, but nothing concrete like stories.

Ehm...I'm waiting on a friend so that we can go for dinner, but who knows, since I woke up so late. I'm now debating going to get something to eat and damn the rain, but I haven't built up the nerve yet.

Anyways, gotta go, the comp is a public one...

I didn't post up yesterday cause I was pretty pissed off and just plain tired. I spent all day cleaning and living up gossip, more or less. I was also pretty pissed off by one of my co-workers. I know that she means well and she's sort of narrow in her pov's, but she's really making me feel annoyed and upset everytime I talk to her. It's kind of like talking to a disapproving mother and it's not a relationship I want to have with a colleague. I foresee a lot of dodging the staff-room next year.

I'm also pretty annoyed at another former co-worker and if I ever see him again, I'm gonna punch him in the ear. Not because of what he did, but the fact that he was a spineless little worm in how he went about everything. I'm also annoyed because the aforementioned colleague is more forgiving of his faults, but she can't stop harping on about mine. I know that I do fuck up sometimes, but I also know that they do need me there...It's just hard to put up with some of the sneers and borderline abuse sometimes.

Anyways, after getting that out of my system, I must say that I am feeling so much more awesome in Montreal, as was predicted. Although we got in really late last night. Around ten when I usually get in about 8.30. I did get my sushi platter and I was well pleased. Although sleeping was really rough, cause the room I was in had no windows and the heat was just sticky and oppressive. It was not cool.

So after little sleep, I got up at like 6.15 to make it to Passport office on time. I did a bunch of running around because of the name issue (which I still have to fix a few things before going to the states cause they're paranoid bastards) And I did get my Quebec Health care thingy sorted (will get the card in September) and my passport application is going through as we speak. I will pick it up on June 30rth, so yeah, it was good that I flew out on Wednesday.

I did do some shopping, but because I'm melting here. I bought some light tops and dresses and shoes (one pair was five bucks and the other was 16$. Most of the purchases have been on sales) and I did get the trendy emo haircut. It's layered and utterly cute on me. I took pictures and will upload for everyone to gawk at soonish.

I'm gonna take a nap soon. I'm sticky and exhausted and I want to lay around and do SFA tomorrow. I'm gonna catch movies, that's about it, really. I want to see the Dark Knight and Prince Caspian and Wanted and maybe some others...gotta check the listings first.

And Yeah...

Last day to get all the shit cleaned up. We had meetings today and One thing just sort of upset me a hell of a lot. I think I may be PMSing or something. It was pointless, I think, that I got upset about the issue. But I don't know. It just...I always tell myself I'm gonna speak up if shit be treacherous...

I've been also hearing a ton of bad shit and I feel bad for one of my co-workers. It's been a rougher than usual time, this past few days. We're just running ragged at this point in time and it starting to show that we're all frayed.

I also gotta go and dump boxes tonight and I'm feeling really bad today. My back hurts and so does my abdomen. I really hate it when I feel this way and I just want to curl up and sleep until this all goes away.

Blaaah. I know tomorrow's going to be better, cause I'll be on the plane to my first journey in the city. But we still have to live through today.

It'll be okay. I know it will. I just have to get over this dread and start thinking positive.

Gotta go.

Grad was gorgeous. It really was. The decorating, the food, the kids. It was lovely. I will post pics as soon as I get them sorted out. My students all looked gorgeous and happy and bright and fresh. The only boy in the group was such a gentleman and so self-effacing that it was just heart-breaking to watch. We were so worried about him in January, so we are sooo happy to see him graduate and go on to college.

Now the after-parties were something completely different. It was fun, the ones I visited (one is still going on full-tilt, from what I heard)we all were just relaxed and mellow and stuff. But later one, I heard there was a lot of not so good shit going down. We have more broken windows at school, at the community center and somewhere else, which sucks.

I didn't get in till noon today. Long story. Very long story. I was lucky I got a ride in, rather than have to walk all the way in, which would have sucked. I had to take a major bath when I got in, cause of all the dirt and sweat and stuff. Blah. But I'm clean and in my kimono, feeling like Mme Butterfly.

Also the wolfmoon came. A week late, but it's here, so thank fucken God. Was getting worried.

Monday's gonna be interesting, once the dirt settles, I think.

I gotta do a shitload of laundry now. I need clean clothes and sheets and the like. Can't leave it a mess. I have to pack up stuff on Monday too, for moving purposes and have my stuff packed for the trip.

I gotta run. Laundry won't wait.

The end of the year is actually here and I am at loose ends. I'm really kind of stressed and nervous, to tell the truth. I just got all my school shit done, but I can't get my flights booked at a reasonable price. I also am having second thoughts about everything, ya know? I don't know...I'm kinda stressing out and sort of freaking a bit.

Grad is tomorrow and I know that I'm gonna be just kinda blank. I really don't want to go. I want to get out of here already. I've done all my shit and I'm just wanting to get out. I know it's cause of the passport deal and all that. I really am crawling out of my skin to leave.

On the other news, I did get the dresses I bought and I was honestly pleased to see that they were loose on me. He. And they're really nice so I don't have to worry about that at least. And my makeup's here, so I'm stoked about that, at least. I don't know if I'm going to go out to the after parties. It all depends how I'm feeling.

I'm just kinda wired and anxious about everything and I really want to be gone that's why I feel this way, I suppose.

I've gotten things done on my lists, which is a very good thing, but the waiting is kinda starting to irritate me.

Finished reading the Sookie Stackhouse book and I have mixed feelings about it. It was good, but it was sort of odd. I wonder if the next one will be that ambigiuos.

Ok. Gotta do more stuff.

I'm gonna make it short because the net keeps shorting out on us so badly that I can't do much for longer than fifteen mins, type of thing.

1. Got a flight out for the 25th of June. Gonna be in Montreal in the evening and gonna get my passport stuff done ASAP, so I can fly out sooner.

2. Kotori Okasaan and I are planning to meet up in LA as soon as I get my ass out there. It's gonna be fantastic!

3. My students did much better in Geography and Science. I was quite thrilled with them. It was good to see that they made a hell of an effort.

4. I think I can get my marks all sorted out by tomorrow and then I'll just have to pack and I'll be laughing. Fantastic.

5. I'm really wired after talking to three people and burning a ton of cds and getting random visuals that made me go WTF dude.

6.Uh...grad night is coming up. I foresee lots of random occurrences. Yup.

7. I gotta crash.

I gave the 2nd of my exams today. Grade seven (apart from a few that I knew were just lost) did fairly well, all things considered. Grade eight did abysmally and has earned my everlasting scorn and contempt for the fact that sheer laziness prevented many of them from even achieving a minimal pass. I'm not even going to comment on it because it's sadly what I expected and nothing is going to change that. Laziness and failure are a way of life that is tolerated here and there's not much that's going to alleviate that unless the community itself does something.

Moving on.

I finally got my guarantor to sign off on my passport and yeah, I admit that I'm not checking my hotmail due to not wanting to read any messages that might make me either more incensed or depressed. I can't really buy anything right now because I'm waiting on so many different factors that I don't want to risk buying something and getting it positively SNAFU'd. I hate the waiting and uncertainty to know that things are hopefully going to go fine.

Alright. I am going to buy my ticket like tomorrow, get boxes and get stuff packed cause I need to take all the stuff I have in the station over to my new lodgings on the weekend. I'm actually going to attempt to get out of Schefferville on Thursday of next week, so I want to be ready to go right away and take my chances, cause then I could have a leeway there. Huh.

*shrugs* No sense in worrying about stuff. What will happen, will happen.

Technically, I'm still working on stuff. I gotta get boxes packed and stuff, but I haven't any and the microsoft word keeps getting stuck and the only place that I know won't glitch up is being taken up by one of my annoying colleagues. I'm gonna try another comp soon and see what happens.

On the other hand, I can manage to get out on Friday to Sept-Iles. Sort of roundabout way of getting to Montreal, but at this time, I'll take anything that will get me into Montreal at a decent sort of time, so to speak.

The plan is to get my stuff done on the 30th, pick it up on the 2nd and fly out that day. Or the 3rd, if things get sort of SNAFU'ed. I also have that weekend to get pictures and find a notary or something if that little thing doesn't happen to work out.

Right. Now I have to buy my ticket and see the parameters of travel and whatnot. I also have to pack up a ton of shit this weekend coming up so that I can move it to my other new location. Coming soon and all that. *snorts and laughs* Yeah...

Didn't sleep too well. The mosquitoes are out and they are fucken annoying. Blah. Just a few more days of this and hey presto.

Moving on.

Finally called to book my flight out and I am on the waiting list. Will try to bugger off to Sept-Iles and do a sort of roundabout flying route to Montreal to get the effin' passport. Finally got my pictures taken and dated. I just have to get my boss to guarantee it and hey presto. Now to get out and the like.

Just tying up loose ends at this point in time. I finished the two exams that were flapping at loose ends. I gotta do a round of photocopying tomorrow, tweak my history exam and it's all done. Now I gotta get my packing done. I'm thanking my lucky stars cause I have an extra day to do all of this stuff, so it's all good there.

Finished that story that I had been sort of scritching for the past two weeks. Not bad after such a drought. I also drew three pics and wrote about seven or eight poems. I dunno why I ended up with the sudden burst of creativity.

I also gave up on "The Court of the Air" It was fantastic crap. 200 pages and I just wasn't feeling it at all. It was utter shite. I didn't like the characters and whatever fucken allegory he was making went right over ma effin' head. It was just something fucktastically crappy in that you could tell he was stroking his own effin' ego.

So now I'm reading "Vicious Circle" by Mike Carey and that's much better. The guy knows what the hell he's doing, so it's much more readable. I was very disappointed with the purchase of that book, but quite happy with the one I'm reading now.

So now I'm gonna digest ma dinner and do some more reading. Sounds like a good plan.

And that's ma day.

The net has been really fucken shitty lately. We don't know what is going on, but it's pissing me off. I just yesterday managed to check my email and got two messages that made the rest of my day really strange. One was from my ex. Another death in the family.  Sad. I wonder if their faith in God is keeping them afloat now.

I felt awkward when I read and wrote the emails. We aren't really keeping in touch anymore and we aren't even close, so for me, I feel like I'm looking in on someone else's grief and the like. So yeah.

The other was surprising and wholly unexpected. Another invitation that I more than likely will take because I'm bored. It left me with mixed feelings and a ton of questions and suspicions. Yet it left me hopeful and sort of happy and shocked. Huh. It was just so odd to hear from that person again. But it also gave me petty glee, I have to admit, when I thought about it. Hey, we all can't be saints here.

I'm still working on cobbling my History exam together. It's 90% done, to tell the truth. I'm hurrying to get it done because I volunteered to help out a teen event. I mean, I talk the talk, so I'm going to always make sure that I walk the walk. So yeah. Besides, it's not like I have sooo many pressing obligations to attend to. *snorts*

Plus, I get to play Guitar hero and Dance Dance Revolution, which I shall be buying soonish.

Family is okay. We are all okay. I bought more tawdry romance novels and a scarf that makes me feel spiffy. And a kimono. Huh.

That's it. Gotta get the last things for my test before my connection times out again.

Dammit I hate it when it does that.

I'm going to have to go for werewolves. They are more visceral and more alive than vampires. They seem to be more reptilian and more like snakes than werewolves. Yeah, they look really good, but that's basically cause they have good reps. I used to be all about the vampires when I read "interview with the Vampire" and all that, but as I expanded by reading (and grew the fuck up) I realized that they are very well romanticized, but are nothing more than leeches.

A good metaphor for having a sexual relationship with someone emotionally damaging, but not someone that you would be really wanting to end up with. So I still am going to pick a werewolf, which represents the more feral and animalistic side of a sexual relationship.

it's been a very strange day, emotionally, to tell the truth. It's the last day of classes, and I'm scrambling to write up my final exams for the children. So far Science is the only 100%. geography is 80% and History is sitting at about 65%. Well, close to 70% by now. It's a bit harder trying to write more higher lever Questions of Bloom's taxonomy. I'm hoping that it will be done soon. I have a spare afternoon, so I'm going to do my best.

Okay. Now we're up to the renaissance. Working. Working.

I'm kinda weirded out right now. It's just...I got two emails and they are sort of hard to take and digest, type of thing. I'm really pushing it away at the moment, but I don't want to really deal with them and the emotional backlash that they bring. Blaaah. yeah. It's kinda hard and sad and wonder and weird joy mixed into one. I can't really explain it.

Plans are still going ahead as per usual. I have been sort of putting off things, but I can't afford to do that any longer, so I gotta get myself in gear at this point in time.

That's about it for now, really.

I'm pretty decent today, despite getting a few disgruntled troops and people not really working and the like. I did my review and even put more stuff in for the ones that decided to show up, so my work has been done.

Update on my exam= about 75% done for two of them and working steadily on the other one. I will have time tonight and tomorrow morning to work on them. (Try all afternoon, more or less due to the way that things are working out) so I will have them ready when the time comes to shell them out. Scheduling conflicts occurred here and there, so I will have a class full of grade sevens and eights writing separate exams. Huh.

Overall, I've been pretty Zen for the past while. I've not been angsty or angry, so that's really good for me. I'm usually so wound up that having me be so mellow and going with the flow is a definite change. I didn't even bat an eye when I saw my one night stand at the store when I was buying lunch, so that's pretty good.

Still reading "The Devil You Know" it's not bad and pretty well paced. I totally recommend it for anyone that likes supernatural mysteries with good setting, mood and character development as well as a steady paced plot.

And with that note, I leave.

No. It was a good day overall. I got my review more or less done and the kids were behaving most of the time, so it was kind of a drowsy day.

I think the weather has something to do with it. It's been raining on and off the whole time and that has made everyone be a little bit more sluggish than usual. Lunch was okay and I started reading "The Devil You know" this is the newest series from Orbit books that I have bought and It's not bad. It starts out with a major bang and continues that way, which always makes reading those kind of books really easy and rewarding, cause you're getting it all in one massive dose.

I've started preparing the template for my history and geography exams, because my time is going to be limited come this weekend. I volunteered to help at an all night event at the community center for the teenagers, so I foresee a lot of staying up and keeping children in check and not a lot of me time.

Thursday is looking to be hardcore, since I have to do review with the grade sevens for two classes. Not really looking forward to it. I'm tired and want to sleep. Next week's gonna be one mother of a week.

And that's it.

today was looking to be sort of crappy, to tell the truth. Yesterday wasn't a red letter day and today looked to be less of that as well, since I have the other sec II class all afternoon.

I was kinda like erg when I was in the office and my boss asked me where I was going to be during my spare. Even though informal offers had been put on the table, this was the formal one. I wasn't cocky and assuming shite cause another teacher, who is very good at what she does (I think there were some sort of conflicts that are behind closed doors) wasn't renewed, so I got worried, to tell the truth.

Then I was called in and made a formal offer and the reasons were that I had improved a hell of a lot since last year and I had been trying out new things here and there and with the restructuring, I did have a position and whatnot. I was kinda shocked and kinda feeling vindicated at the same time.

I mean, yeah, I am the master of navel-gazing introspection, but I always am questioning myself if I am doing the best job that I can possibly do. I always do try new things and I am bloody hard on myself. I think that also, when I came back, I had time to re-think what I could do and how I could change things that I had messed up my first time around. I wanted to prove that it was possible for me to do what I could do. I also learned to be more patient and think a little more before I spoke. I think I grew as a professional and I am happy to see that it did make a difference in my performance review.

*nods* Yeah. The rest of the day went pretty swimmingly, if I do say so myself. Got some stuff written, found out that I don't really have to write an entirely new exam for sec I science, just have to modify it for this year and review went well.

I'm making dinner right now-chicken, rice and beans and some salad. It should be good.

Gonna go read another book now.